My Last Day :(

Today is my last day of maternity leave and I'm feeling really down about it. I never thought I'd be the type to want to be a stay at home mom, but I can see now why people want to do it. I still don't think I would want to stay home for good, but I could definitely use three more months. I feel bad even talking like this in this economy. For all I know, I will be forced to stay at home in a few months because of lay offs. I should feel really lucky to have a job to go back to, but when Aiden smiles at me with that gummy, dimple smile of his it just melts my heart and I don't wanna go back. Shawn keeps trying to remind me that going to daycare will be good for him, but it doesn't seem to help my feelings of sadness about the whole thing. I just need to get past Monday and I think I'll be okay.